I'm so stupid.

Really. Really. Really. STUPID.
Want to keep my crush secret, my foot.  I swear, I'm just like those flitty girls I hate at school.  Say the opposite of what they mean.  Annoying biotches, all.

To add on to my crappy mood, I've got a crapload of homework to do. And I'm really not in the mood.

On the positive side, many lovely chapters of Flat were posted on Mangafox! Yay, Heisuke-kun! You're so awesomely irresponsible!  Take good care of Aki-kun!  However I'd never go out with you!

I just remembered.  Didn't I say I wasn't in a boy crazy mood this week?  I'm such a loser.
Well then, there's three possibilities:
1. I got rid of my anti-guy mood.
2. I was lying and saying the opposite of what I mean (again).  I'm actually very boy-crazy.
3. I'm not boy crazy at all and am just playing the part of a teenage girl.

It's a little unnerving to observe how much I don't know my own self.  And yet I know myself better than anyone else.  So will I never solve the mystery of myself?

Omgee! I'm back!

Wow, I haven't been on this thing for forever and a day, it seems.
To tell you the truth, it's because I forgot my password. *smiles cheesily*
But that's not the only reason!
I've been really busy with schoolwork and whatnot.  Getting hardly any sleep.
Oh! Lovely! The Killers just came on the radio!
Tonight's not too bad a night.  The only "due" homework is the Pre-Calculus homework, which I just finished.

I'm really nervous, lately.  My piano recital is coming up on the 14th.  I'm playing Chopin's Nocturne in Eb Major, Op 9 No 2.  It's not that hard but I can never get it right, and I was supposed to have it "down" at least two weeks ago.  Today I was practicing it in the cafeteria during lunch, and it sounded beautiful, but when I played it again I started having to much fun and totally lost it.  Plus I'm still not confident on the last section, where he stops repeating that motif! Oh my god, I'm going to suck on stage! TT_TT

Well, that's one worry.
Worry number two, I have totally lost all self-discipline. Damn me and my manga addictions.
I'm falling waay behind in my "Elite SECA students" list.  It's like WTF, man?
I mean, I wasn't able to take my midterm for Pre-Calculus, so I had an F on my Snapgrades for a week and half until she dropped it (*HUGE sigh of relief there*). I got a B on my Chemistry test today, with the extra-credit.  I got a 24/37 on my AP World History exam; thank God that she's letting everyone retake the test and average out the scores, and even posted  a study guide for us, but I haven't even started on that.

Worry number three,
NaNoWriMo.
Why am I even doing it? Because I've been into writing stories lately (Becca has too) and I don't want to fall behind her.

OHEMGEE Today's my lucky day! The Fray just ended on the radio, and then they played Muse, "Starlight"!  My mood has lifted.  A bit, anyway.

I just wanted to hold you in my arms.

*sigh* Romances are so disappointing but so lovely.
It's too bad their beauty doesn't really exist in real life, ne?
I finished watching Honey and Clover on hulu last weekend with Rebecca (instead of doing my homework). The ending was... well, it was bad.  But, I guess I just wasn't satisfied.  I mean, I totally knew that neither Yuta nor Morita were going to get Hagu in the end, but is she going to end up with Shu-sensei?  Isn't he her uncle?  Why is nobody perturbed by his feelings for her?  And, you can pretty much guess what's going to happen with Takumi and Ayumi-- he'll (perhaps) get together with the target of his maniacal stalking, Rika, and she'll get together with Nomiya.  It's not that I don't like Nomiya, it's just that I like Takumi better.  But I'm annoyed with Takumi, but not because I don't like him.  It's because I don't like Rika.  But.  It's not Rika's fault...?
Argh, I don't know.  My feelings about the ending are all mixed up (as though my opinion on an anime series really matters right now).  All I can say for sure is those last few minutes were touching.  I mean, I'm not really one of those weirdos who go around screaming "Youth is beautiful!" (actually, I was for a while.  After reading Tenshi Nanka Ja Nai at the beginning of the year.  I actually told Becca that we should stop being so pessimistic and go out of our way to have fun for the rest of high school.  She called me and idiot.  I gave up my short-lived resolution soon enough anyway).
Anyway, like I said, I'm (no longer) one of those weirdos who go around screaming "Youth is beautiful!" but after listening to Yuta's little epilogue, I was nearly going to cry.  I don't have any beautiful, youthful memories to cherish here at SECA since I practically hate people but it made me sad that some day this time of my life is going to end.  We won't hang around everyone after a certain point, and... we'll all just drift away.
How sad, right?
But now (2 days later) I'm totally over it.  What happens, happens.  We are not really individuals.  The feelings we are feeling have been felt before.  The ideas we come up with have been thought up before (I just found a whole bunch of holes in that argument, but I won't contradict myself right now).
In these last 2 days, I think I've read over 15 manhwas.  They weren't completed, but.  That's a little pathetic of me.  I should be focusing on my work.

However, they were kick-butt good!  I've re-fallen in love with Hwang Mi Ri (wasn't I talking about how much I hated her before?), but I especially love this new series on MangaFox, Cheese in the Trap! So cute :3
Manhwa artists are so good.  Just like with "Pink Lady".  All color! Can you believe it?

Well, I've ranted long enough.
I made this pointless movie Saturday night/Sunday morning.
Enjoy.

The Thing (no, not the one from "The Adams Family")

So, the big "Thing" which has been wrecking my sub- and not-so-sub- conscious lately: I am still  putting off my summer homework. Seeing how it is 2.42 am on Friday, August the... 6th (?), and I start school at 8 am Wednesday the 11th, I am soon to be in big BIG shi..itake mushrooms!
Anyway, the other "Thing" is... my dearly beloved sister has come home from Missouri and I am oh so overjoyed. Especially because she broke up with her lame boyfriend and keeps complaining about that and keeps telling me to get my eyebrows done and tells me to get the hair dryer from the apartment downstairs and I had to gather up all my clothes from upstairs and lock it downstairs so she wouldn't steal it like she always does and she keeps accusing me of stealing her iPod. Sorry, was that a run-on sentence? I kinda just needed to get that out there.

On much brighter, less stressful notes: manga/anime commentary!
Shiki: I am absolutely lovin' this series. It's like, so... what words should I use to describe it? Mystery, suspense, Japanese, bishie, and vampire!  But like, not in the cliche, Twilight-and-the-like-inspired sense.  You know how people seem to be obsessed with strange and mysterious epidemics that suddenly hit the modern world?  Well, it's kinda got the feel of that, but only because the villager doctor and monk don't suspect something supernatural... such as vampires. By the way, the "vampire" thing is so NOT a spoiler.  It's super obvious from episode 2 that the deaths are a cause of vampires or something, which makes me more than a little frustrated with the main characters.  Then again, they weren't exactly expecting something that's not supposed to exist... but COME ON PEOPLE, HAVEN'T YOU EVER WATCHED A HORROR FLICK? [link to show page on Hulu]
Trace: Speaking of typical Sci-fi, you've probably heard the template for this storyline over and over.  You know, the "30 years ago supernatural creatures came to Earth and caused utter destruction, ruthlessly killing human lives.  For some strange reason, some humans were mutating and also started having supernatural powers..." cliche?  Yeah, that's pretty much the basis of this story, except that this is pretty much my first time reading a Sci-fi manga with this type of storyline, so I'm pretty interested... for now.  I mean, on top of the not very original story idea, the presentation is just a little confusing (although that's probably just the fault of me reading in it's unofficial form), and the art's not particularly aesthetically pleasing.  In truth, I'm only reading it because I caught up with the "Noblesse" updates, but well... I think it's progressing okay enough. [link to manga page on Mangafox]
Black Butler II:  ♥!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If ya watched the first season and were disappointed with the outcome so ya decided not to watch the second season: WATCH THE NEXT SEASON YOU'LL ABSOLUTELY LOO~VE IT.  Claude (the new butler) is totally on par with Sebby! But Ciel is way awesomer than that brat Alois. [link to show page on Hulu]

Um... well, there's more I want to say but Becca seems pretty annoyed and Mom and Dad just woke up and will probably be mad that I'm on the computer at 3.10 am so BAI!

Bittersweet endings + Foreboding Prophecy.

Wouldn'tcha know that the day after I blog about "Hana no namae",  THE LAST CHAPTER COMES OUT ON MANGAFOX! x.3 It was love-lovely, although I feel as though the ending was rushed. There could've been so much more to the story! ;( But oh well. My wishes have come true! Chouko+Kei forEVERR..
LMAO. So when I finished reading the chapter (at about 2 am), I was so wrapped up in manga-bliss, I started dancing to waltzes by Strauss..


Anyway, I thought I was only going to blog about the loveliness of life as blessed by shojo manga, but then I read my horoscope:

It may not matter how creative you feel because an unexpected twist to your day places additional demands on you now. You will still have to show your competence and perform your job, but you could misjudge how long it will take to complete a project, so it's best to start early. If you wait longer than you should, you might not be able to pull off the magic with your usual finesse.

So, these are the stars telling me: "Hurry up and do your homework, you lazy slumbag!" *sigh*
My lovely summer days will be drawing to a close faster than I think. 

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