Omgee! I'm back!

Wow, I haven't been on this thing for forever and a day, it seems.
To tell you the truth, it's because I forgot my password. *smiles cheesily*
But that's not the only reason!
I've been really busy with schoolwork and whatnot.  Getting hardly any sleep.
Oh! Lovely! The Killers just came on the radio!
Tonight's not too bad a night.  The only "due" homework is the Pre-Calculus homework, which I just finished.

I'm really nervous, lately.  My piano recital is coming up on the 14th.  I'm playing Chopin's Nocturne in Eb Major, Op 9 No 2.  It's not that hard but I can never get it right, and I was supposed to have it "down" at least two weeks ago.  Today I was practicing it in the cafeteria during lunch, and it sounded beautiful, but when I played it again I started having to much fun and totally lost it.  Plus I'm still not confident on the last section, where he stops repeating that motif! Oh my god, I'm going to suck on stage! TT_TT

Well, that's one worry.
Worry number two, I have totally lost all self-discipline. Damn me and my manga addictions.
I'm falling waay behind in my "Elite SECA students" list.  It's like WTF, man?
I mean, I wasn't able to take my midterm for Pre-Calculus, so I had an F on my Snapgrades for a week and half until she dropped it (*HUGE sigh of relief there*). I got a B on my Chemistry test today, with the extra-credit.  I got a 24/37 on my AP World History exam; thank God that she's letting everyone retake the test and average out the scores, and even posted  a study guide for us, but I haven't even started on that.

Worry number three,
NaNoWriMo.
Why am I even doing it? Because I've been into writing stories lately (Becca has too) and I don't want to fall behind her.

OHEMGEE Today's my lucky day! The Fray just ended on the radio, and then they played Muse, "Starlight"!  My mood has lifted.  A bit, anyway.

I just wanted to hold you in my arms.

*sigh* Romances are so disappointing but so lovely.
It's too bad their beauty doesn't really exist in real life, ne?
I finished watching Honey and Clover on hulu last weekend with Rebecca (instead of doing my homework). The ending was... well, it was bad.  But, I guess I just wasn't satisfied.  I mean, I totally knew that neither Yuta nor Morita were going to get Hagu in the end, but is she going to end up with Shu-sensei?  Isn't he her uncle?  Why is nobody perturbed by his feelings for her?  And, you can pretty much guess what's going to happen with Takumi and Ayumi-- he'll (perhaps) get together with the target of his maniacal stalking, Rika, and she'll get together with Nomiya.  It's not that I don't like Nomiya, it's just that I like Takumi better.  But I'm annoyed with Takumi, but not because I don't like him.  It's because I don't like Rika.  But.  It's not Rika's fault...?
Argh, I don't know.  My feelings about the ending are all mixed up (as though my opinion on an anime series really matters right now).  All I can say for sure is those last few minutes were touching.  I mean, I'm not really one of those weirdos who go around screaming "Youth is beautiful!" (actually, I was for a while.  After reading Tenshi Nanka Ja Nai at the beginning of the year.  I actually told Becca that we should stop being so pessimistic and go out of our way to have fun for the rest of high school.  She called me and idiot.  I gave up my short-lived resolution soon enough anyway).
Anyway, like I said, I'm (no longer) one of those weirdos who go around screaming "Youth is beautiful!" but after listening to Yuta's little epilogue, I was nearly going to cry.  I don't have any beautiful, youthful memories to cherish here at SECA since I practically hate people but it made me sad that some day this time of my life is going to end.  We won't hang around everyone after a certain point, and... we'll all just drift away.
How sad, right?
But now (2 days later) I'm totally over it.  What happens, happens.  We are not really individuals.  The feelings we are feeling have been felt before.  The ideas we come up with have been thought up before (I just found a whole bunch of holes in that argument, but I won't contradict myself right now).
In these last 2 days, I think I've read over 15 manhwas.  They weren't completed, but.  That's a little pathetic of me.  I should be focusing on my work.

However, they were kick-butt good!  I've re-fallen in love with Hwang Mi Ri (wasn't I talking about how much I hated her before?), but I especially love this new series on MangaFox, Cheese in the Trap! So cute :3
Manhwa artists are so good.  Just like with "Pink Lady".  All color! Can you believe it?

Well, I've ranted long enough.
I made this pointless movie Saturday night/Sunday morning.
Enjoy.

Alone in the house on a warm summer day.. I'm all dressed up for nothing.

"In science the credit goes to the man who convinces the world, not to the man to whom the idea first occured."


So today I helped out in the summer Algebra 2 class.  It was pretty fun, but I don't think more than 5 or 6 people will pass and move on to Pre-Calculus for the fall semester.

Besides that, I looked through my journal and found a poem by Tupper that I really liked.  I might've posted it here before, but I don't really care so I'll just post it again.


Sloth, by Tupper

 A little more sleep, a little more slumber,

A little more folding the hands to sleep,"

For quick-footed dreams without order or number,

Over mind mind are beginning to creep--

Rare is the happiness thus to be raptured

By your wild whispers, my Fanciful train;

And, like a linnet, be carelessly captured

In the soft nets of my beautiful brain!

Touch not these curtains!-- your hand will be tearing

Delicate tissues of thoughts and of things--

Call me not!-- your cruel voice will be scaring

Flocks of young visions on gossamer wings:

Leave me, O leave me-- for in your rude presence

Nothing of all my bright world can remain--

Thou art a blight to this garden of pleasance,

Thou art a blog on my beautiful brain!

Cease your dull lecture on cares and employment,

Let me forget awhile trouble and strife,

Leave me to peace-- let me husband enjoyment--

This is my heart and the marrow of life!

For to my feeling the choicest of pleasures

It to lie thus, without peril or pain,

Lazily listening to the musical measures

Of the sweet voice in my beautiful brain!

Hush-- for the halo of calmness is spreading

Over my spirit, as mild as a dove;

Hush-- for the angel of comfort is shedding

Over my body his vial of love;

Hush-- for new slumbers are over me stealing,

Thus would I court them again and again,

Hush-- for my heart is intoxicate-- reeling

In the swift waltz of my beautiful brain!

 I'm not sure exactly what it is I like about this poem, but I suppose it'd be the feeling of laziness yet vanity it emits... as though one realizes that her peace of mind is from the lack of desire to get up and do something, but sees herself as smart and beautiful and deserving of this break from work (although really she knows that's not the case at all).  I'm not sure if that's what Tupper was trying to say, but that's the feeling I get.  It's very similar to my own thoughts. ^^


I just watched Bleach Ep. 113.  Updates for manga I read?  Looks like nothing but "Boy of the Female Wolf" by Han Yu-Rang so far, up for grabs on mangafox.com.
The manga of the week on mangafox is "Flat", and I agree: it is really good.  Even my sis, who's not really all that into manga, loves it.  However, because it doesn't focus around super optimistic and corny lines (which, don't get me wrong, that's a good thing), she thinks that someone's going to die. "I swear, Sarah, if someone [Heisuke or Aki] dies, I will kill you."  In response, I said I would kill myself after killing the mangaka and resurrecting Heisuke and/or Aki. ^^
It's great to be young.


If there's anyone out there who reads my blog, please visit my friend (well, she's not really my friend, but you get what I mean) April, who's blog I'm starting to read.  It's a lot like mine, in  a way.
http://april-apesblog.blogspot.com/

I have some story ideas to post, but this entry is long enough as it is.  I'll just post them later.
Well then, I'm off to do some homework, like a good Japanese student (even though I'm not one).
Ciao! [^^]o0(♥)


Edit Before I forget: yesterday, at church Sis. Frances was talking about how Jesus wants to hear you say that you love him.  I don't want to get super religious right now, but I thought I'd mention the phrase she said:
"Sarah, lovest thou me?"

Is it just me, or does this picture look ridiculously cliche?  Y'know, kinda like the Sample Pictures already on your computer when you buy it?
Anyway, it's a picture of my math teacher's ancient dog, Lady.  Her distinguishable feature (beside the fact that she's old)? She doesn't shed-- she molts.  It's kinda disgusting.  And she LOVES cherries... which makes you wonder how her owners can stand cleaning up after her.
We took the picture at a party on Saturday with my mom's super cool camera that none of us even know how to use.  It's one of those professional-looking types where you can take off the lens and you zoom in by twisting the lens, and this sticky-thingy comes up and flashes every time you take a picture.  Yep, it's pretty cool.  Unfortunately, I know nothing about taking cool pictures.  So, I've been thinking-- should I take a photography class?  I mean, not only would I look insanely awesome as someone who looks like she knows what she's doin' when she handles a camera, but I'd ACTUALLY be able to make something visually appealing.  I mean, my friends can all draw or something, but anything I do with my hands ends up looking like total crap.  I can't exactly bring a piano with me everywhere I go, and people start calling me granny whenever I start crocheting, so... yeah.  PLUS, I'd be able to post cool pictures online, like real bloggers with real lives do (LOL).  Since, y'know... all I do is write and stuff.  Just being the narcissistic teen who thinks people care about what I say.

Well, school's just about over, so here's my schedule for next year:
1. Honors English 10- THANK GOD I'M GETTING NEW ENGLISH TEACHERS.  No offense to my current teachers (actually, I don't really care if I offend them or not), but this year was... not good.   I mean, our teachers previously taught elementary students, and it showed.  We wrote very little serious essays (in fact, we wrote little at all), spent FOREVER doing silly projects, and read like 6 books as a class when as an Honors class we were supposed to have read like, twelve, I think? So yeah.  I was disappointed with English this year.
2. AP Chemistry (although I heard rumors about AP Anatomy).  This scares me a little.  Is our science teacher (currently teacher Biology, when his major was chem) QUALIFIED to teach an AP class?  I know you have to have a certified teacher or something, and let's face it, his teaching this year wasn't exactly challenging, considering he just summarized what was in the book.  Or rather, quoted the book word for word.  However, since his major IS in chemistry, I think hope wouldn't be wasted on thinking that this coming year might be better.
3. AP World History.  It sucks that we're taking World History twice in a row, but since it's AP this time, and it will be insanely hard this time around-- I'm fine with it.  A little scared with having to write essays and annotated timelines all the time, but fine.  Wish that we could be taking AP US History, though, since would've matched up with our Academic Decathlon subject.
4. AVID 10.  And aren't we all just EVER so happy about that...
5. Academic Decathlon Yay!  See secacadeconline.blogspot.com.
6. American Mock Trial, which will be taught by my AP World History teacher, who is a lawyer (and a fanatic about copyrights).  I'm a little scared to take this class at the same time as Academic Decathlon... but heck, it's worth a try.
7. Art History. As a college class.
8. Economics. Also as a college class.  I'm scared these two will be DARN STINKIN' HARD.
9. Possibly another year as a Teacher's Assistant for the math professor.  Maybe. Let's see how hard things get.
10. Pre-Calculus, as dual-credit for high school and University of the Pacific (woot-woot!) ^^  Can't wait!  Even though I heard it'll give me a brain wreck.
11. Anime Club! This year REALLY sucked, so hopefully people will still want to do this.  I want to run for president this year and make it really fun... go to conventions, plan fundraisers, hold movie nights... all the like.
12. Key Club. My dad told me an awesome idea... giving books to public schools in the Philippines! I think that'd be really great, because it's a different type of fundraiser that'll help most of us get rid of books we don't want anymore, and help children in poorer parts of the Philippines learn English!  As many who have visited such schools now, the books there are VERY old-- like, at least 50.  So yeah!  I was also thinking about doing a pen-pal system with students from over there, but considering the price of postage, I don't think the schools over there would be able to do that.  Oh well... my sister was thinking about doing some local stuff here at the school: for example, Meatless Mondays (as inspired by "10 Things I Hate About You") and In Her Shoes (as part of Sexual Harassment Awareness, where everyone in the school wears heels).
And of course, I plan to get back on track with having a proper piano teacher, going to gym classes (and possibly taking up a sport), volunteer work, etc...

With all this going on, should I take up Chess Club?
#"I just don't know what to do with myself." -Song by... The White Stripes?  Don't really remember. (*EDIT* I included the video below)
Okay, well... that was way more than you wanted to know about me.  Here's a few links and stuff to make up for all that jabber:

My sister is currently experimenting with cosmetics (seeing as how our family is very inexperienced >.<).  Isn't she such a motivated artist?
By the way, my birthday is well... today (May 21), but because I knew my friends were trying to throw me a surprise party, they celebrated it on May 20th instead.  Pictures on Facebook! (facebook.com/mizfrazelle)
Gotta sleep now!  There's a test 3rd period and a semi-formal dance tonight! Ciao!